Monday, September 18, 2006
~ Have I changed? ~
7:42:00 pm
Recently, my mum commented that I am very rude in the way I speak... She also mentioned that I am more harsh and aggressive in the things I do... Well, I didn't quite believe it but my sister had said the same thing too, adding that I have less patience these days and easily flaring up...
It caught me thinking and my only thoughts then:
Am I really the way you describe it to me?I looked at myself and asked, "How could I have changed so much?"...
Where was the sweet and patient me?
Where was the gentle me?
Where was the old Nadiah?
And I compared my current self with the old me...
In the past, whenever I do work, I try to make sure that I produce the least noise so as not to disturb anyone...
Now, I don't really care if I'm making a lot of noise or not, as long as I finish my work...
In the past, whenever I pass report at work, people have to keep telling me to pass louder...
Now, I make sure that everyone can hear my report loud and clear...
In the past, whenever my mum asked me to do something, I can do it without much problem...
Now, I grumble a lot whenever she asked me to do so...
In the past, I would go up to my colleague if I wanna ask something...
Now, all I need to do is shout from afar...See, I realised that I have changed a lot... I don't know if work have really changed me although it could be one of the reasons... Or it could be due to the tiredness and stress I experience at work... I don't know...
All I wanna know now is, how can I bring the old me back??
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
